to all band members out there

to all the band members who visit my blog occasionally, a big thank you for all your comforting words n ur nv giv up on band...pls do make sure dat u work hard tog under d new leadership....led by Jia Qi n Marissa...dun let me down..dun let history repeat itself (seniors/leaders quarrelling...not co-operative...). there is so much left i can do for the band...i can onli try think of better n more interestin activities for the band so as to improve n raise standards n recognition..i dun tink i can go back to d times of solving conflicts..dun let me down...dat is all dat i ask of u..all of u....pls put in d effort...we nid to prove ourselkves....2011...our last chance...if not d sch management ll hve to ask Miss Tan to leave....if u treasure her...(n her cat stories)...work hard...prove ourselves....

any better choice for us???

Principal ask me today...y go for IMM performance n play for kids...sounds so "LC"....can't we go for better performances??can't we source for more prestigous ones? of cos i would luv to!!!!!!! like d former invitation to perform at Istana??!!!perform at Botanical Gardens???!!!however...my reply to him was...we r a Bronze band...the organisers, having heard our standards, would not and did not invite us...so...what else can we do other den settle for small performances? of cos d IMM one is meaningful...but...do d pple up there understand our feelings?when we hve to be rejected from bigger n better performances and end up for these smaller scaled ones??!!!

when would d band b able to lift our hands n perform for a good source? hmm...shld start tinkin of performance at Botanical Gardens or MacRitchie Reservoir...been saying dat so long ago but nv come true..perhaps its time to work on dat.... as for concert???!!!haiz...though i promised ex-members of holding a concert...d idea still fail to materalise..not cos i dun wan to work..not cos i dun wan extra responsibilities...but cos i cannot get support n approval fr sch management...wad to do...haiz...wonderin how long more ll tis dream of own ticket sellin concert take to come true...

worse still...get scolding from HOD...y?for puttin too much emphasis on my CCA n not on the MT department!!!!duh....nw become i dun care of MT dept..haiz...how to balance sia....seriously...i feel ore for the Band den anythin else n m willing to spend time gettin things done for band....dept?err...c how bah.....

Wedding Preparationzzz.....

Been v busy these edays with both work n centre..to add on...wedding is yet another stuff dat has kiept me n hubby busy..ya...lucky hubby is doin most of d stuff...greatly appreciated...cos work is tying me down to b free to settle such stuff..hotel arrangements hve been settled temporarily..now is left nearin d dates to arrange to tie up last bits of ballroom deco..wedding cards..guest list..

bridal package oso settled le..a bit x but ya we liked his work piece n professionalism so...decided to pay a bit more...juz went to choose gown for outdoor shoot yesterdae..lol..now left d bridal shoot on 17th June...hope ll turn out nice lookin on photos..lol...

things to do now??guest list...wedin pin li n stuff...food tastin...err...most important!!!search for shoes!!!!!nid d shoes for d weddin shoot le but aaarrrggghhh....i cannot find nice silver high heels!!!!! anyone has any idea???!!!

other den me...2 good buddies oso tying d knots tis yr...J in Sept...n Xinyi in Nov too...but...i cannot attend both of theirs!!!!cos both less den 3 mths difference...cannot attend in case bad for either party!!!eeerrrhhh.......can onli wish both buddies d best in their wedding....

Yet another news of GOLD...

Xianz....todae got another piece of news...Gu Zheng got GOLD...of cos happie for them..after all hard work shld b reciprocated..however...its now juz us...the Concert Band that is left stranded alone wif Bronze..all others hve gotten their GOLD...all others can now ask for a nice travel overseas..all...except the Concert Band...wad went wrong? now even d instructor wants to leave...i dun blame her..given her past records of Silvers n GOLDS...we hve truly let her down...thus if she reallie wan leave us...we cannot stop her...but is this Band fated to be doomed?y all others can improve..except us??!!hve we not done enuff??!!!haiz...reallie xianz....

SYF...still a Bronze Band after all these years...

Disappointment still resides in me even though reality has set in since 2nd April 2009...no doubt....it is a real hard truth to swallow...in the end...despite all d hard work n efforts...despite all d encouragement n positive reinforcements...we still onli clinched d Bronze award...is it a curse or sthin??has s/one many years back put a curse on the Band??y isit dat everyone else can get a better medal..except the Band...did we put in any less effort for our training??!!NOOOOOOOO...........we had our equal share of trainings..tough trainings...yet...y do others getto enjoy d fruits of their labour n we always don't?? isit fair??!!

i cried..reallie badly...i could not care much abt comfortin or consolin the members cos i myself was too lost in my disappointment n upsetness...of cos i woke up d next day wif badly swollen eyes n throbbin headache..from d cryin i guess...its been a long time since i last cried so badly...for the past few days..d 2 SYF music pieces kept playin in my brain....it juz kept playin...no...my members had played it so well i could remember it so clearly...y den do they fail again??!!isit destined??

Dorean cried as well..its her 2nd failure as an instructor to achieve better results for YCCB...she was very disappointed as well...from her voice over d phone...she felt like givin up too...juz like me...yet...we do not believe this is all that the Band is worth!!!we believe the Band can do it!!!yes...the Band has improved so much over the years...so much dat anyone who does not comprehend music but has heard us back den n now can tell the improvements that we had made...y den did we fail yet again? tis yr...d disappointment was worse off den last SYF..

Dorean and I promi8sed each other to give the Band one more hance..in SYF 2011...should the Band fail yet again...we will resign frm our positions as instructor and teacher in-charge...Perhaps...despi8te all d hard work we hve put in...we r fated not to see it winning...perhaps..s/one else would have better luck to make miracles happen...

2011...d last chance i am givin myself n the Band...Bronze or better, i ll request to step down as teacher in-charge...let s/one else take over..i m tired..reallie tired....not dat d band is lousy to produce results...perhaps..i am juz not destined to b able to share d joy wif my members...my onli hope now..is for d band to continue to work hard n persever on..wif new leaders coming in to leadership...i hope all d efforts dat i have put in have not gone to waste..no internal disputes...no fights for power...all workin tog as one big family..all wif d same dirive n tot: SYF 2011..we muz prove ourselves..we wan to bring the Band towards Greater Heights!!!