SYF...still a Bronze Band after all these years...

Disappointment still resides in me even though reality has set in since 2nd April 2009...no doubt....it is a real hard truth to swallow...in the end...despite all d hard work n efforts...despite all d encouragement n positive reinforcements...we still onli clinched d Bronze award...is it a curse or sthin??has s/one many years back put a curse on the Band??y isit dat everyone else can get a better medal..except the Band...did we put in any less effort for our training??!!NOOOOOOOO...........we had our equal share of trainings..tough trainings...yet...y do others getto enjoy d fruits of their labour n we always don't?? isit fair??!!

i cried..reallie badly...i could not care much abt comfortin or consolin the members cos i myself was too lost in my disappointment n upsetness...of cos i woke up d next day wif badly swollen eyes n throbbin headache..from d cryin i guess...its been a long time since i last cried so badly...for the past few days..d 2 SYF music pieces kept playin in my brain....it juz kept playin...no...my members had played it so well i could remember it so clearly...y den do they fail again??!!isit destined??

Dorean cried as well..its her 2nd failure as an instructor to achieve better results for YCCB...she was very disappointed as well...from her voice over d phone...she felt like givin up too...juz like me...yet...we do not believe this is all that the Band is worth!!!we believe the Band can do it!!!yes...the Band has improved so much over the years...so much dat anyone who does not comprehend music but has heard us back den n now can tell the improvements that we had made...y den did we fail yet again? tis yr...d disappointment was worse off den last SYF..

Dorean and I promi8sed each other to give the Band one more hance..in SYF 2011...should the Band fail yet again...we will resign frm our positions as instructor and teacher in-charge...Perhaps...despi8te all d hard work we hve put in...we r fated not to see it winning...perhaps..s/one else would have better luck to make miracles happen...

2011...d last chance i am givin myself n the Band...Bronze or better, i ll request to step down as teacher in-charge...let s/one else take over..i m tired..reallie tired....not dat d band is lousy to produce results...perhaps..i am juz not destined to b able to share d joy wif my members...my onli hope now..is for d band to continue to work hard n persever on..wif new leaders coming in to leadership...i hope all d efforts dat i have put in have not gone to waste..no internal disputes...no fights for power...all workin tog as one big family..all wif d same dirive n tot: SYF 2011..we muz prove ourselves..we wan to bring the Band towards Greater Heights!!!